painting His Dream...

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He will heal me.
He will bind me up.
He will revive me.
He will raise me up.
And I will live in His Presence.

He will restore my health.
He will heal my wounds.
He guards my bones.
He arms me with strength.

He will deliver me.
He will break through.
He will lead me out.
He will make me live.

In Him I put my trust.
I will never doubt.
If I touch His garment,
I will be healed.
If He says a Word,
I will be healed.
If He touches me,
I will be healed.
If He calls me out,
I will live.

There is no darkness in Him.
In Him, there is light.
There is no sickness in Him,
In Him, there is life.
There is no confusion in Him,
In Him, there is peace.
There is no weakness in Him,
In Him, there is strength.
I will live and declare His works.
I will serve Him all my life.

He is my Lord and Saviour.
He is my Beloved.
The Love of my life.

Written by Nithya JC.
17 March 2024.



Yes, I was born a Hindu and I will die a Christian.
But nobody converted me!!



I’m just so tired of people talking about conversion to Christianity!

First of all, do you really think you can fool people so easily? Have you tried?
Just on hearing some empty promises, nobody would forsake their religion and take the risk of their lives to believe in another faith.

I wanted to tell you I was born in a orthodox hindu family. I went to temples and attended all the pooja in my house till the age of 12. I remember those days very well when I used to carry my little doll to the temple and made it to worship the gods.

There came a time in my life when I was searching for a true friend. Everyone has a search within themselves whether they realize it or not. Nothing can satisfy this vacuum inside the creation except the Creator Himself. We may refer it as search for love or success or fame or respect or wealth or whatever. I searched for love in its truest sense. At that young age, I named it "a search for a true friend".

I was studying in Tamil medium till my 5th standard. I got promoted to English medium in 6th standard. Many girls used to tease me by calling names. I was humiliated just because I was from Tamil medium. To make the long story short, I was so humiliated and felt so lonely that I desperately searched for a true friend.

It was then a girl named Subha invited me to a prayer at school chapel. There I heard someone explaining me the crucifixion of Christ. He did no wrong. But he was punished for my sins. In my little heart, I wondered how can someone love me so much to go through such cruelty? It touched me. I never had felt love before like the way I felt that day. I came to know that there is a God who is so real, so loving that I could call him “my friend”. Wow! That was exactly what I needed.

From that day on, it's been a long journey with my sweetest Lord Jesus Christ. He dwells in me! I talk to Him every single day. I listen to His word. He speaks to me in a still, small voice. It is all so real. He is more real to me than any other human being on this planet. Unless you experience what I have experienced, you can never understand it.

So this is it. Nobody deceived me by empty promises. Nothing dramatic happened to me. NOBODY CONVERTED ME TO CHRISTIANITY. It is my decision to live the rest of my life with my Lord who loved me like no other. Just because I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior, nobody gave me money or anything else. In fact, I only lost many things because of my faith. But I never ever regretted my decision, NO! not even once. He is the reason why I live. He is the only hope and joy in life. I know I will see Him when I die. I know I will be with Him in heaven in one day. I know I am prepared for eternity. This is all I need to know. And this is enough. 

So before you even start talking about Christian-conversions and speak ill of the men of God, I challenge you to do one thing. If you really have the guts, why don’t you close your eyes once and genuinely ask God to reveal Himself to You if He is really up there? 

Have you ever tried to find answer for questions like "Why am I here?" "Where will I go after I die?" "How am I supposed to live?" "What are the standards of living?" 

If what I say is all true and He is the only true God, how will you face him one day? 
Please take time to think about it. And for heaven’s sake, please grow up!!



 ~.~. JC Nithya ~.~.






Dearest Lord,

 I realized I didn't even begin to understand the depths of Your love for me until the day I saw my child fell down. I felt my heart literally jumped out of my chest to pick her up. I felt the sting of pain to see her cry so badly. 
I felt I ran to her crying like i never did in my life. I felt I could do anything...just anything in the world to keep her safe. I felt I would give my life to keep her away from hurt and pain. 

That's when it suddenly occurred to me how much You loved me that You came down to pick me up.  Much more and so many mega times more than the love I have for my child.

I am indeed very much a part of You just how my child is a part of me. I mean the whole world to You just how my child means the whole world to me.

Love You Lord. Your love so greater than anything I can ever describe. 


Love You with all that i have. 
Love You with all that I am.

Yours,
Nithya.



The Lord upholds all who fall and lifts up all who are bowed down.
Psalm 145:14 




She's curious. 
She dreams. 
She fantasizes.
She finds. 
She gives her all. 
She sacrifices.

She believes. 
She bears. 
She's hurt.
She's disappointed. 

She cries. 
She shouts.
She fights. 

She struggles.
.....
and then one fine day,
She withdraws herself.
She exists.
She is.



~.~. Nithya JC ~.~.



       
      The other day I was thinking about the very simple questions we miss to ask ourselves. And so we go through meaningless motions in life without realizing what is actually important.

If only we ask these questions,

  • What am I doing here on earth? 
  • Where will I be going after death? 
  • Who will cry for me and miss me truly if I die tonight? 
  • How many things have I done that will outlast my life (that'll speak of me even when I'm gone) ? 
  • When was the last time I stood amazed watching the moon or a rainbow or the eyes of a baby? 

then,
  • We'll find our our life's purpose.
  • We'll end up with God.
  • We'll get to value relationships and take time to express love.
  • We'll concentrate on doing meaningful things than just gathering wealth.
  • We'll start to enjoy every moment.

Won't we?


~.~. JC Nithya ~.~.




















It's been nineteen years.

We still miss you.

Every conversation..even the ones with all the fun
ends up with you and your memories.

You are the reason behind many of our smiles till today.
You are the reason behind many of our tears as well.

It still hurts your parents to see your pictures.
It still hurts your sisters to think of all the good times.

You're the best son any parent would long to have.
You've been the best brother any sister would wish to have.

Though I have only a vague memory of you,
I miss the beautiful relationship i could have had with you.

Still there are so many "if only"s, only you can complete 
and so many "Wish you were"s, only you can fulfill.

You loved us all like a child. 
so much of love with so much purity.
You never preached us about Jesus.
But we found Him through the way you lived.

Yes, we know you're in a better place
rejoicing with the Lord you loved the most.
We can't forget you, dear Uncle.
We hope to meet you soon.

You are an indispensable part of our lives.
We miss you lots.


With Love,
Nithya JC. 16.9.2012.


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